A Nerdy Birthday

I just celebrated my birthday on April 26th. It seemed my birthday started the day before. This is how my birthday weekend went.

Thursday April 25th: We had a food day at work. Which means there was a TON of food that people brought in to share and of course all that food was in my cubicle. Which means snacking while I work. BAD IDEA! Why would it be a bad idea to have all the food in my cubicle, you ask? Well, I’ll tell you. For one I will eat all of it and another…nope…that’s it, I would eat all of it. Besides that, it was basically just a normal work day.

Friday April 26: HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME! Well, I was lucky I didn’t have to work this day because my work was closed on arbor day. There was a joke going around at work about how we had that day off to celebrate my birthday not because it was a state holiday.

First thing in the morning I met my mom at the car repair shop to drop off my car to get fixed. After we did that mom came with me to my chiropractor appointment. Then back to my house. Well, I decided I need to get life alert at the age of 33. Why, you ask? Well, I was walking down the stairs to my apartment and my ankle rolled and I fell down the stairs head first. I hurt my hands, knees, wrist, and back. That was…awesome. No worries though. I’m fine. Later on, that day my parents and I went to go see AVENGERS: END GAME! I was nerding out so bad. I am a huge fan of super hero movies such as Marvel and DC. That was pretty epic.

Saturday April 27: I relaxed when I SHOULD have been doing homework. So, you know, procrastinating. I did see AVENGERS: END GAME…AGAIN that night with my girls. So that was AWESOME! You know its true friendship when you can geek out with your girls and not be judged. They just join in.

You may not be able to tell. But I am not fond of my birthday. It’s not a big deal for me. There are people that make a HUGE deal of their birthdays. I am not one of them. You know I suffer from depression, right? Well, me not making a big deal of my birthday has a LOT to do with my depression. There are times where depression gets so far in your head where it magnifies the pain, self-doubt, and causes you to believe the negative thoughts. For some people it can be too much. They want it all to end. Many people will only think about ending their lives but there are people that would attempt ending their lives. I was so bubbly and a positive person. Always “happy”, so it seemed on the outside. Those are the people that you need to watch. I was one of those people. I have attempted it a few times. That’s just one reason why I’m not fond of my birthday. It’s are minder I failed to end it when I wanted to be gone. But that is a story for another day.

Every day of your life is a reason to celebrate. You never know what might happen. Some have depression and can’t handle what is in their head and end their lives before their lives really start. There are some that get really sick with cancer and fight their hardest to defeat that demon. Most win. And those who DO win appreciate their lives way more because they would have missed out what could have been. The adventures, the excitement, and the life that they could have lived. Now they don’t get to miss out on that amazing life. They live their life to fullest. They appreciate their life and the people in them way more.

Life shouldn’t be taken for granted. No. life should be lived. Life should be loved. Yes, I know. At times it’s hard to even love life or have the motivation to live. I’m not saying you spend money to live life. I’m saying sometimes in order to really live you need to take care yourself. Self-care. When you take care of your mind. You take care of your life. When you take care of your life. You take care of you. And with that journey you can find who you are. Appreciate who you are. Love who you are. BE who you are. When you can BE you. THAT’S when you can truly live and be happy. It may take a life time but in the end it’s all worthwhile. GO GET IT! YOU BE YOU!