Glass Case of Emotions

What? Another entry so close together?! Ya, I know. I’ve been bad about posting. So, I’m working on writing and posting more. It’s a good therapeutic outlet when you have a mental health after all.

What’s bad about having depression is when you feel, you feel with immense intensity. You can be fine one minute and then you see something, a reminder, and lose all motivation and all will in that moment. You feel that betrayal all over again. You feel that pain all over again. You feel those knives repeatedly stabbing you in the back over and over again once more. All those emotions come rushing back. All those emotions come back just like it was happening in that moment.

Chest tightening and eyes watering. What do you do? Two options; one, you can let it out and cry to relieve all that stress and anxiety to help you feel better. Or two, push it down and hold it back and let it consume you to cause more anxiety and more pain in your current situation.

You know what’s funny? I HATE crying. Not even by myself. So, I push it down, way down, to keep me from crying. What I do is I find other ways to help me feel better withOUT crying. But there are times where I cannot contain it and the flood bursts through the dam anyway.

What do I do when I hold back the tears? Well, I focus on something else that has nothing to do with the situation that caused the pain in the first place. I’m horrible at talking out my issues but I manage to have a close group of supportive people that I can talk to in the moments where my anxiety is taking over my mind or my depression is digging me deeper in the hole. I may not talk about the deepest things that goes on in my head, but I talk enough about the current things that are not so “big” that goes on to at least help me feel better.

Talking is a good outlet for your emotions even just talking to your cat or dog helps. There are also ways without talking to let out emotions. Art such as painting, drawing, or even writing is a great way to let out emotions in a more creative way. Another good outlet is something physician such as cleaning or working out. Not my idea of expressing emotions and relieving stress but it’s good for the body and the mind.

Taking care of your mental health is important because it's a vital part of your life and impacts your thoughts, behaviors and emotions. Being healthy emotionally can promote productivity and effectiveness in activities like work, school or daily life.

Think of something that you do that helps you calm down. Reading? Writing? Painting? Photography? Cooking? And even Watching your favorite tv show? I do that a lot. Sit back and watch my favorite tv show (supernatural), drinking out of my supernatural glass and supernatural blanket and of course wearing my supernatural clothes. Yes, I am a bit of a geek. Proud of it too.

Focus on what calms you, clears and relieves that stress in your mind. Sometimes we need to take time to get ourselves back in the balance of things and to refocus.